Posted 05 October 2014 - 08:49 PM
Posted 12 October 2014 - 04:47 PM
Thank you, all! I have to laugh at my username -- obviously it's been a long time since I wrote my name!
Last week, while on holiday, I found myself in many churches which sparked my desire to come back. Eventually I was at Vespers in a monastery and got a chance to speak with the Archmandrite. There are no worries about my memories getting in my way; I know this now. I know where I belong and I don't want to spend another minute away from the Faith I was so fortunate to stumble upon in university. When I got home from holiday, I had confession (over the phone) and heard "welcome home" I feel at peace.
I have found a new obstacle: I am working in a (moderate) Muslim country (weekends are Friday and Saturday in the Muslim world) and the only Orthodox Church here holds Liturgy on Sunday mornings only, which is not a possibility. Certainly I can't have been brought back to the Church, only to not be able to celebrate? I dread the thought of only having Communion when I'm either back home or in other countries. Advice?
Posted 12 October 2014 - 10:56 PM
Posted 14 October 2014 - 07:41 PM
I am truly overwhelmed now -- by the prayers offered for me, so unworthy, and by the Grace of the Lord who should have turned His back on me as I had on him. Lord, have mercy: I went to see the Priest here and I am going tomorrow for my first Communion in years, and then on Sundays after work. I have been treated far better than I ever expected, or deserve, by the Lord and His Church. I am so humbled by this whole experience that a candle, a prayer and a "thank you,' or even those unceasing are not enough. But I do thank you for your prayers!
I have struggled to ask for things in prayer, but my prayers are being heard and answered. I have another, please: that my memory of the Faith can be restored, or that I will relearn everything and retain it this time. In order to deal with the past (and resulting PTSD) I had to resort to somewhat drastic measures. The medical procedures I underwent (which I would rather not speak about, as they are in the past and, thank God, they helped to fully heal me) have resulted in some memory loss -- the Orthodox Theology degree has been all but erased!? What I remember of Liturgy has faded, and I feel like I am learning to pray all over again. A catechumen once again! :-)
Humbly but joyously in Christ,
Posted 15 October 2014 - 05:25 PM
Being a Christian is not about being clever or having a good memory: it is about faith. The English words, 'I believe' at the start of the creed are actually rather weak: the Greek and Slavonic words are stronger - they mean, 'I confess', 'I have faith that'. If you can say the Creed and mean it, there is no hindrance.
Posted 16 October 2014 - 07:02 PM
Being a Christian is not about being clever or having a good memory: it is about faith. The English words, 'I believe' at the start of the creed are actually rather weak: the Greek and Slavonic words are stronger...
Of course you're right (that's why I pray mostly in Greek). Thank you. Intellect is very precious to me. My faith was found during and nurtured through my education and I'm just re-educating myself, I suppose.
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